Sunday, November 11, 2012

Finally Getting Started…

Workbook entry for Embroidery Ledger class

Several years ago something had happened (I don’t remember what) that made me begin to ask God to show me why I became so upset over criticism both good and bad. Didn’t seem to matter my blood would begin to boil. As I prayed, a day in my life came to mind, one which I had totally forgotten about, well at least conscientiously.

I was back in first grade. For some reason the school had decided to combine some first and second graders into one class. I think it was to be a combination class of some kind not two separate classes. I don’t think the teacher was too happy about it and was teaching us as two separate classes.

One day she told the first graders to color in their workbook while she worked with the second graders. I tried to get her attention but she told me to be quiet and start coloring. So I was obedient.

Well a little while later she came by my desk picked up my workbook and held it up to the class “Look what Rose did, she colored everything yellow.” Well of course the whole class, first and second graders laughed. I came from a rather large poor family. What they didn’t know was that was the only color I had that day and that is what I had been trying to tell the teacher when she hushed me.

I wanted to cry, I was so embarrassed. Since then I have been super sensitive to other’s reactions.

Once I realized what was the root of my feelings I was able to overcome my super sensitivity and accept and value the opinions of others.

I have been considering doing something with the color yellow ever since then. A body of work called “Look, she colored everything yellow!”. It will be at least a quilt, a collage, and an embroidery piece. I love the color yellow! So in the Embroiders Ledger Class that I have been taking I started a page based on the color yellow with only black and white added. I’m really enjoying how this project is turning out. It will definitely have an influence on the body of work I will do. Stay tuned as it progress.

Close up of workbook entry


I’ve done the buttonhole wheel cup stitch. I like this stitch I’ve done it before in my Brazilian embroidery work. This time I just scribbled a few round lines and then did a yellow buttonhole wheel cup stitch in the center and a different colored one around the yellow ones. Then I finished off the line with a green buttonhole stitch. I considered doing the detached buttonhole with it also but decided not to since I still have two other stitches to complete in order to catch up.

Now I’m caught up! What a good feeling.


The closed base detached needlewoven picot was fun to do. I can see this with a whole field of them. It took a while to do the really long ones but it was worth the effort.

The open base detached needlewoven picot stitch first made me think of doing a lizard with the tongue as the stitch. I decided instead to try and make little flags. They came out okay except I would have liked the tips to be more pointed. When I did the first one I wasn’t too sure of how they would turn out but now that I’ve done the whole string of them I rather like them. I do love to weave!

Happy Stitching!


Queeniepatch said...

Dear Rose,
First of all, thank you for sharing your bitter childhood memory with us. Often it is something that happens when we are young that colours the rest of our life, and we need to be adults to understand where that pain comes from.

It is hard to be a teacher and have two classes to look after, so I can forgive the teacher for not listening to your call early in the lesson. However, it was most unkind to highlight to the whole class that you had use only one colour, especially without first checking why. I pray the teacher, and the other children, eventually understood and reflected over their deed.

Now you have become a person with great artistic skills which can be seen in your embroidery and sketchbook. These days there is hopefully a more liberated look on art in schools and an all yellow picture would be not only fully acceptable but unique and special.
Let's celebrate yellow!

I think your picots are lovely. The bunting is colourful and fun, and the tips ARE sharp.
Should you wish to have them even sharper, I would suggest using the thinnest possible pin and start the picot weaving with real tight tension.

Rose said...

Thank you for your kind words Queenie! I really think she was to teach us as one unit not two but I do understand that teaching is one of the most challenging and teachers for the most part do more than they are paid for.
I love, love, love yellow!

As for the picots I was thinking maybe a thinner pin might have helped. The one I used was a corsage pin which are quite thick.

margaret said...

Rose, Queenie has expressed what I am sure we all feel about the incident in school all those years ago. You certainly have come away from school with a talent that we can all appreciate.
There is a saying, sticks and stones shall break my bones but words will never hurt me, I have always thought how silly, words hurt more than anything, bones heal but what people say is much harder to forget and forgive.

Rose said...

Hi Margaret,
I agree about the difference between words and stones. They can both hurt and sometimes the word hurts are harder to detect. Funny thing about this is I had totally put this incident out of my mind until the day I was searching for an answer. This has happened before to me when I've been struggling with an emotion or reaction that I knew was harmful to me but couldn't overcome it. Then something out of my past comes to mind and I'm healed.

Anneliese said...

I share my love for the yellow (sunny) colour with you - but admit that I love also green - and what I see in your ledger is lovely! I am happy that you use yellow inspite of the bad memory of a school day.

jan b. said...

I'm glad to see that you've embraced the color yellow rather than turn away from it. This is a lovely example in your ledger. I have yet to post anything to the group as I seem to be stuck on lesson 1. sad, yes ... but maybe soon.

Stitchinscience said...

Hi Rose, this is a powerful post, thank you for writing it. I really enjoy seeing the work in your ledger. I am having a bit of a break from mine for a few weeks, but i know I will then go back to it with renewed vigour.